Starting the Dream!

Wow, how exciting!

My very first blog, this is the beginning of my journey to success.
About me...... Well my name is Katrina and I live in the beautiful country of New Zealand, I recently turned 30 and I am a single Mum of 4 beautiful children.

In December of 2007 my life as I knew it came to a crashing halt when my husband and best friend of 12 years confessed to me that he had been living a lie, the man I thought I knew so well was a complete stranger to me. We had just come home from spending a beautiful morning together as a family when he revealed to me that he had been unfaithful to me years before we were married and that he had children to two other women and he'd had numerous sexual encounters with other women as well. As you can imagine I was completely devastated and my world had been turned upside down.

I spent the next 6 weeks agonizing over what I was going to do, so many thoughts were racing through my head, should I just forgive him and get on with it? Should I tell him to get the hell out and never come back? How would I be able to cope on my own with four kids? How was I going to explain this to people? I was so confused.

I knew I had to have some time to think and sort my head out, so I asked my Mum to take the kids for a few days. Without all the distractions around it didn't take long for me to work out what I wanted. I knew there was no way I was going to be able to live out the rest of my life with someone who had betrayed me the way he did. I also knew that in all our time together I was completely loyal to him and stood by him in some very rocky times and that this was really the last straw for me. I had nothing left to give and my feelings towards him had changed, I was completely empty inside.

So that was it. It wasn't easy and he didn't take it well at all but I told him it was over between us and that he would have to leave.
That was the end of an error for me and the beginning of I had no idea what!
I quickly discovered that I had no idea who I was anymore and everything I had planned for the future involved him so I had to start over completely.

So for the past year and a half I have been on a journey of discovery, I have found myself again and didn't realize at the time how I had been walking through life with him as an empty vessel, I had given up everything I believed in and everything I loved to make him happy. Leaving him was the best decision I have ever made and I'm doing it! Im living life again and I feel so free. My kids are doing great and slowly things are getting easier.

So where to from here?
Well thats the whole reason for starting my blog, I am taking charge of my destiny, I have a big dream for myself and my children and I believe that if you put it out into the universe, it will happen. It is The Secret.
I also believe that in order for good things to come into your life you have to help others, I have never felt sorry for myself and wondered "Why Me?" Yes I hit rock bottom but I got back up on my feet and picked up the pieces and I know that I am strong and that whatever happens I can and will get through it. But my goal is to help others through similar situations, to let them know there is a rainbow at the end of that dark tunnel and sometimes the grass is definately greener on the other side!

Well thats all for now..........
Katrina
xxx